Alone

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It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone - so far.  -Marilyn Monroe



Lately, I have been feeling extremely alone.
Of course I am not all alone, I have the girls and then I have my family here too.
I mean alone, in a relationship, adult interaction kind of way.
When you go from being married for almost 5 years, living away from home and then bam!, moving back, not being married anymore (technically we still are..) you feel alone.
I have been alone before, heck for most of my marriage I was alone.
This is just different.
It probably doesn't help that I don't know anyone here and that my days consist of taking care of the girls, then going to the gym when they go to sleep. I actually look forward to those miles with the treadmill.
And I feel like this feeling isn't gonna go away.
I do know one thing, I do not want to be alone for the rest of my life.
Even though I joke with my friend that I will be, and yeah part of me is scared of that happening. I really hope it doesn't.
Until then I need to shake this alone feeling.


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and yes, I know I chose to end my marriage, for good reasons. So ironically I chose to be alone, but I have to say being alone is better than my marriage.